I'm trying to figure out why I think this current WIP is giving me more heartburn than the one I just finished.
For some reason I remember that finished manuscript flowing effortlessly, from page one clear through to "The End". The characters cooperated, revealing their story with a beautiful narrative. There was a natural rise and fall to each scene, with the exact amount of needed tension, as well as the right balance of showing, not telling.
Yes, that's the way I remember it. But that's not the way it happened.
While I was in the midst of revising the manuscript, my brain apparently decided to revamp the memories of how that book was actually written. If I really dig into the memory banks, I can uncover the unofficial, not-glossed-over version of writing that particular story.
There were plenty of days I had no clue what to do, so I just sat down and typed and the story revealed itself like it always does, in its own time, and with its own methods. Other days I sat and stared out the window, waiting for the ideas to wake up in my brain, and when they wouldn't, I gnashed my teeth and moved on to something else.
It's never easier.
It's tempting to think it is, because it's always different. But writing isn't as easy as we remember it, once we've finished something. I could call up my BFF and she would give testimony on how I crawled forward inch-by-inch with my fingernails. . .even though I would swear I floated through a dreamlike experience, one that I wish I was in right now.
So don't get distracted by the glamour of the book that's finished. It was hard and grueling and worth every minute of what you put into it. Now it's time to do the same with THIS book. You'll love it one day, and rhapsodize about what a dream it was to write.
Only none of us are going to believe you.
Well, the storytelling be easy...it's the writing it all down in a sensible fashion that proves difficult. And keeping it in order, without confusion...
Details! Details! Details!
I know it were easier in the beginning because I didn't know better and just wrote without worry 'bout rules or all that nonsense.
Sigh.
Posted by: Maureen | September 13, 2010 at 12:26 AM
Maureen, it was probably easier in the beginning since we didn't know the rules. BUT it was also easier to reject those manuscripts, since they had more enthusiasm than anything else. LOL
Thank goodness we're stubborn, or tenacious, right? LOL
Posted by: Donna Cummings | September 13, 2010 at 09:47 AM
So true! I am having that issue now where I swear this is the "hardest" book I've written. LOL
Posted by: JennWalkup | September 13, 2010 at 12:50 PM
I was just thinking this very thing this weekend as I was working on my current WIP. Which may kill me yet.
Life always looks easier in the rearview mirror? :-)
Posted by: Liz Fichera | September 13, 2010 at 01:03 PM
Jenn, I think we try harder things each time, because we like the challenge (I'm guessing that's what it is! LOL) So if that's the case, each book actually WILL be harder than the last. Now all we have to do is convince ourselves it's a good thing!
Posted by: Donna Cummings | September 13, 2010 at 01:04 PM
LOL, Liz -- maybe our brain is trying to be merciful, giving things in the rearview mirror a rosy glow? Otherwise we'd give up entirely! LOL
Posted by: Donna Cummings | September 13, 2010 at 01:09 PM
Donna, This is so true. I thought my first book was easier too, but then I remembered all the times I changed the word count to fit a certain publisher, the time I tried to rewrite it as a YA, etc. One of these days, I'm going to write a perfect first draft, but it hasn't happened yet. Great post.
Posted by: Clarissa Southwick | September 13, 2010 at 07:48 PM
Clarissa, wouldn't it be wonderful to write a perfect first draft? Sigh. LOL I feel like I know so much more about writing, so it should automatically be easier. :) But since it's not, I'll just keep my stubborn self typing away until this book SEEMS easy. LOL
Posted by: Donna Cummings | September 13, 2010 at 08:08 PM
LOL. It seems the one we are working on is always the most difficult. I'm lucky though, I've found the method that works best for me so the first draft is much easier. But then comes revisions and they are always tough!
Thanks for stopping by the Roundtable today!
Posted by: Laurie Faelan | September 13, 2010 at 09:56 PM
Laurie, you're so right! When I'm drafting, I can't wait to get to revisions, but then when I'm revising, I keep thinking how much easier it was when I was drafting. LOL
I'm glad you came over from the Roundtable (I really enjoy that blog, by the way). :)
Posted by: Donna Cummings | September 13, 2010 at 10:12 PM
And we chant...
EEEEEE...ZZZZZ...
Well, maybe at least it can be fun...
Posted by: Maureen | September 14, 2010 at 12:29 AM
It's definitely fun! That's why we do it, right? :)
Posted by: Donna Cummings | September 14, 2010 at 08:42 AM
Is this supposed to be making me feel better? Because I'm not getting a warm and fuzzy feeling. Whining and freaked out, but not warm and fuzzy. LOL!
Thankfully, there are snippets that come easy. And occasional "Aha!" moments that make things easier. But "easier" is relative, after all. LOL!
I want a perfect first draft too!
Posted by: Terri Osburn | September 14, 2010 at 12:57 PM
Well, yeah, it was SUPPOSED to make you feel better! LOL Because if I truly believed the easy stuff was behind me. . .well, I'd be crying all over the place. LOL
And you are so right about "easier" being relative, because there are some days when the words are flowing like they'll never stop, AND they're even in the right order the first time out! So no freaking out. Not today. :)
Posted by: Donna Cummings | September 14, 2010 at 04:38 PM
I did comment yesterday...really! It got ate. Oh, well, since then I've changed my mind about what I said anyway. LOL I think I agreed that I selectively remembered my finished book was easy. Sure. But since I've had time to think about it I've refreshed my memory. It wasn't easy. By looking in the folder with all my dated revisions I remember the work almost in third person. Who was that stubborn person who didn't give up? It's a good thing to remove the blinders of selective memory and appreciate that the the former wasn't a fluke but earned. It can be done again. :)
Posted by: Melissa | September 14, 2010 at 07:03 PM
Poor Melissa - you just have the tastiest comments as far as my blog is concerned! I'm glad it gave you a chance to reconsider though. LOL
And that's a great idea, to look through the dated revisions, to see exactly what it looked like when you started, as opposed to when you finished. There's a lot of progress there, as well as a lot of admiration for that stubborn person who wrote it. :)
Posted by: Donna Cummings | September 14, 2010 at 07:19 PM